Do you ever feel like life is kinda in a rut? Like you thought you would be somewhere completely different right now, but somehow it just didn't happen that way? Like you know something needs to happen...something BIG....something you need to MAKE happen? That maybe nobody really needs/wants/misses you? That you're just here taking up air in the world? I'm not going through a mental break down or anything, but I just have this feeling my family and I are floating somewhere between where we were and where we need to be, where we THOUGHT we would be, where we NEED to be right now. Confusing, I know...try being me. I don't know what to do with it all. Jayk and I have been dilligantly trying to figure out what we should be doing and where our family should be....where life is going to take us. I almost feel exhausted trying to put all my energy into putting everything in its place, connecting all dots, crossing all t's, and still have no idea where life is going to take our little family. In the meantime, I guess, we'll continue on steadfast in our everyday lives because as much as it may sound like I'm complaining we have so much to be thankful for. My kids are growing like weeds and healthy as can be, Jayk has a job....not a career, but a stepping stone that will hopefully get us where we thought/want to be in the future, and it pays the bills which helps me still be ABLE to stay home with my kids and THAT I love every minute of. So, YES, my family is truely blessed and for that I'm thankful. I just pray the Lord will continue to bless us and help us along on this journey...that we will keep up our end of the bargain so that he will be able to bless our little family always and forever.Friday, June 3, 2011
Hmmm....
Do you ever feel like life is kinda in a rut? Like you thought you would be somewhere completely different right now, but somehow it just didn't happen that way? Like you know something needs to happen...something BIG....something you need to MAKE happen? That maybe nobody really needs/wants/misses you? That you're just here taking up air in the world? I'm not going through a mental break down or anything, but I just have this feeling my family and I are floating somewhere between where we were and where we need to be, where we THOUGHT we would be, where we NEED to be right now. Confusing, I know...try being me. I don't know what to do with it all. Jayk and I have been dilligantly trying to figure out what we should be doing and where our family should be....where life is going to take us. I almost feel exhausted trying to put all my energy into putting everything in its place, connecting all dots, crossing all t's, and still have no idea where life is going to take our little family. In the meantime, I guess, we'll continue on steadfast in our everyday lives because as much as it may sound like I'm complaining we have so much to be thankful for. My kids are growing like weeds and healthy as can be, Jayk has a job....not a career, but a stepping stone that will hopefully get us where we thought/want to be in the future, and it pays the bills which helps me still be ABLE to stay home with my kids and THAT I love every minute of. So, YES, my family is truely blessed and for that I'm thankful. I just pray the Lord will continue to bless us and help us along on this journey...that we will keep up our end of the bargain so that he will be able to bless our little family always and forever.
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I can totally sympathize with you. That's how I felt when Catlin got married and Lance and I were trying to figure out if we should stay in the south or move home. It took months for me to get my answer and when I finally did I wasn't happy with it. But now I totally understand, and feel like we're exactly where we need to be at this time in our lives. Keep doing what your doing. The Lord will answer your prayers, I know it will all work out for yall. Love and miss you, can't wait to see yall in august!
I know exactly what you are trying to say and I have felt that same way many times. Especially the idea of no one missing you, especially friends.Like everyone else is s busy and happy and moving and we are just digging a ditch. Satan is good at helping us feel that way. Just so you know you aren't alone! :)
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